Last Semester Syndrome

So I've been having the syndrome that people usually say as "Last Semester Syndrome". It is a situation in which you really feel the urge to finish the campus as early as you can, because you are already bored of the life there, while at the same time feel insecure about what may come in the future and what may happen after you graduate. It is common, I guess. But I didn't think it would hit me that badly.

This semester, in my last moments in the campus, I only enroll two courses. One of it is not counted as a real course because it is basically just a regular meeting with my TA lecturer every Wednesday, while the job is done alone in the lab or at home. The other one is also not really intensive because it is only scheduled once a week, and it takes place in the lab. Studying in the lab is not suitable for chitchatting with my friends because we have to focus on our tasks.

I basically have less friends to talk to regularly each day, because either they are busy with their own researches or they just hardly ever appear in the campus. Into the first few weeks of this last semester, I've been feeling the sudden change. I miss the occasional jokes, I miss the small talks, I miss everything. Suddenly, everything makes me gradually feel insecure about my presence in the campus, about my career options, about my family, about my friends, about potato, and everything else.

By the time I have to leave everything behind, I want to leave it with a big grin. Well at least a smile, but not a faint one. I want to make sure I have accomplished my tasks perfectly so I have nothing to regret. Besides, I will have to get ready for the next chapter of my life. I have to prepare myself.

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